Damn, Its been a min since I wrote on my blog through my computer! Seesh! Well as you all have been reading I am sorta out of my slump... No... he and I aren't back to the now and forever stance. Sadly neither is He and is current. I know he was really digging her.
Shyt I almost wanted to tell him to come home the last time we spoke then I remembered this wasn't his home.
Oh and me an Alonzo are no more at all. Hell I know I wasn't in my right mind when we were talking cuz now I'm having nightmares of his after sex face. *shivers in disgust* I mean he looks like...Ugh just forget it!
Yea, but we are done. I mean I feel bad about his father passing but all that really did was show me how much of a worthless, clingy, low self esteem, baby making, wanna be he really was. In my mind I often wonder was I that hurt or depressed that I tried to get over some one I loved by being with someone I despised.
Its amazing the things you will go through to make yourself believe you are happy. Thank God I got out of that slump and shyt. Now I just need to help my Twin *the male version* get back to his. I know I left him at his worst before and I am truly sorry about it. So I made it my personal effort to get him at least out of the dumps he has been in. Sadly he may never read thins but at least it is documented in history forever.
Thats all for now I'm out!
~RaE~
Shyt I almost wanted to tell him to come home the last time we spoke then I remembered this wasn't his home.
Oh and me an Alonzo are no more at all. Hell I know I wasn't in my right mind when we were talking cuz now I'm having nightmares of his after sex face. *shivers in disgust* I mean he looks like...Ugh just forget it!
Yea, but we are done. I mean I feel bad about his father passing but all that really did was show me how much of a worthless, clingy, low self esteem, baby making, wanna be he really was. In my mind I often wonder was I that hurt or depressed that I tried to get over some one I loved by being with someone I despised.
Its amazing the things you will go through to make yourself believe you are happy. Thank God I got out of that slump and shyt. Now I just need to help my Twin *the male version* get back to his. I know I left him at his worst before and I am truly sorry about it. So I made it my personal effort to get him at least out of the dumps he has been in. Sadly he may never read thins but at least it is documented in history forever.
Thats all for now I'm out!
~RaE~
2 Speak Yo mind's I might listen...:
"Its amazing the things you will go through to make yourself believe you are happy."
Now ain't that the truth!
So many people do that to themselves each and every day.
The key is not to get hung up about being 'attached' or being in some kind of Romeo & Juliet-type relationship.
The best policy is to take care of you. Take care of your health, take care of your head and, while you are doing that, someone will look up and think, "Damn, I like what she's doing!"
I love it when you comment you leave so much insight! thank you!
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