Holiday blues

Man was I a fucking fool to even think that he and I could ever be we again! Damn was I a fool to think that he would be here for one of the most important moments in my life! I mean really as strong as I am he got to me and I'm tired of this shit! I love you and I feel you have taken advantage of that love! I should have never opened my heart back to you! You walked in and took occupancy til you felt your Ms. Something Better felt she wanted you back. As much as I am trying to be here for you I am fucking hurting and you frolic along with her. Well just know every hurt I'm feeling it only pushes me harder and drives my passion even further. So have fun just don't think you will ever get the old Rachele back she died the same day you loved another. I make my self physically stronger just so I can guard my emotions till they can just reflect pain. There is no more of me to take just know I will find away to make it with out you Roderic Ray!

~Rae~
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