Am I over it? Pretty wings

WOW!
I truly am not over this... him... we.
I don't want us to be us, but its killing me every time I see him speak of another... knowing that he is the only love I have/ want as of now.
It's just I don't wanna be with anyone right now and he has to have room to sow the seeds needed to make it out of his darkness. I mean really just reading his blogs about all these other new people that he confides in. Seeing that I am no where to be found hurts me to no end, and that in turn only pushes me further in to my own issues and out of his life portrait.
But if a girl captures his heart and she is the one who am I to stop his true love. I just know that every time I look at my leg and he looks at his arm, we won't be forgotten.
This is honestly the first time I have ever cried writing a blog. Knowing that he and I are truly coming to an end all simply because he is getting over me and I am truly not over him....

~*~
Pretty Wings

Time will bring the real end of our trial
One day they'll be no remnants
No trace, No residual
Feelings within ya
One day u won't remember me

Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I cannot have forever
I'll always love ya
I hope you feel the same
You play me dirty, your game was so bad
You toyed with my affliction
Had to fill out my prescription
Found a remedy
I had to set you free

Away from me
To see clearly the way that
Love can be
When you are not with me
I had to leave
I had to live
I had to leave
I had to live

(If I can't have you let love set you free)
(To fly your pretty wings around)

Pretty wings, your
Pretty wings Your
Pretty wings, pretty wings around...