Patience is wearing thin

Hello Blog World!
Hell I don't know where to start, so lemme just jump till it all comes together. First and foremost my bestfriend is moving in and im am excited and nervous, but very sure that all is well and will be productive. With that said there are a few people that are grinding my gears as of late, My mother and my boyfriend. It seems that no matter what I do or they do, they always seems to piss me the fuck off. I love them dearly, but they just aggravate the fuck out of me. Maybe its not them but me and my own attitudes. Hell whatever it is its driving me insane...
None the less I keeps on pushing!
Thats all for now.
~Ellez~

Love and Life

As of recently i have been in the most interesting relationship...
It has caused me to see my own flaws and definitely hate what I see in others some times. Most time we get along but as of lately I don't really thinks so... Hmmm Well maybe these poems can sum it up better than I can.

FACELESS HERO

I saved you from yourself and you never even thanked me.
Its ok cuz you never even knew you were in danger.
I loved you from a distance and watched you grow, making my self the faceless hero.
I was there for you at your best and worst moments lurking in the expected breaths you took for granted.
I have waited my whole life for you to embrace me and you never did.
I was the driving force that helped you get through college.
I was the poise that landed you the job you dreamed.
Yet still I remained nameless.
I was the man you let go, the child you aborted, and the angel that held your hand when you made the careless decisions.
I was the warning you got when you saw the one you loved in the casket.
So when will you acknowledge me?
What will it take for you to put a face to me?
Do i have to take the things you hold dear?
Yes!
This faceless hero has made a name for him self all thru your life, but now you will know me as...
Death,
Life,
Time,
and Love....

the faceless hero.




Sweet things turn sour pt.2

We are not who we believe we are...
I love you but at times I don't like you.
My mouth spits poison that even you thought you were immune to but eventually it got to you. My tears are liquid acid burning holes thru your heart, yet you dont understand why I denied you.
I was not to make self better it was to save you.
I am nor will I ever be a dream girl but a nightmare seeking your soul.
I was once the angel you needed, but onec my soul was taken I too became a dream thief.
No! It was not by choice but by force.You don't know cold this world is and I would have frozen to death if I had not adapted. So please forgive me for not being what you needed but what you despised and this what happens when sweet things turn sour.
I'm Sorry...
Ladi Elle

My mind...

Hello... all I am the one and only Ladi Ele. Well you dont know me but you will get to know me.
Well here goes. I am an aspiring poet, bartender and philosopher (or however you spell it) that has a horrible time with grammar and procrastination. It seems I have all these ideas that I am just to afraid to go for even though they are wonderful and sensible. I have certain friends that secretly wish weren't my friends, but i have know them for so long that it seems i can not let them go. I mean they work my nerves, they never have money period but always want to go out or be around me knowing that I will want and do things so they mooch. Sad to say i allow it!! Shame on me...I know! Honestly when I sit back and think on it I would have so many things if i didnt have these type of people in my life. Well I guess since I'm writing this is should do something about the problems at hand. WELL I'm off for now to go fix the issues hope i dont procrastinate about it and i will type to you all later.