Well I have good news and I have bad news...
Good news is I got a new phone the Blackberry Tour! Totally love it like beyond all types of love!
Bad News... there is a great deal of uncertainty in my world none the less I keep on pushing.
Well since my lil blog break so much has happened. I went from a pretty happy relationship to letting go all together. I mean it hurts to let go but obviously it was the best thing to do since he and I argued like no other over everything. At times I think I am going for the wrong men and giving to much time and energy to things that shouldn't be paid any attention but all in all, I guess it makes you stronger.
The most painful part of this hiatus was the realization that the one I truly loved and was with lied to me. True enough how we broke up was wrong, but honestly don't sell dreams when yours have come true. It was foolish of me to not expect him to move on, but at the least be honest about it. I shed tears for an hour about the fact the he threw away the option that there could ever be us again.
There will for the time being be a sense of psycho in my mind about it. No... I will never like her for the fact that she felt the need to speak on things that never pertained to her in a sense, but the blame is not entirely on her. If he were as honest as he claimed to be may all these so called feeling wouldn't exist. At times I wish I could go back to the times when we were happier but that is a pure fantasy. He simply wasn't the one since he could seriously not even let things fall according to plan. Maybe I was wrong for expecting him to what things as bad as I did. At the end of the day love is lost and I will not even be a mere thought in his mind. In true confessions I wonder what does she do for you that I didn't? Do you sit up with her in the middle of the night laughing and talk with here like you did with me? Does she cook for you?
Just looking at pictures of us together makes me feel all types of emotions. The picture of me in the hospital that you took. The tears I cried the night I got the positive pregnancy test that you never knew about cuz I was to scared to tell. The fact that even before the little one could be more that just a small fragment of love we had... It was gone. Yes... Letting go is so hard to do cuz you were me and I was you. I still laugh at the fact we look alike, or the fact that we both had fro's. Yet I still shed tears from the fights and heart felt moments we had... So I end this with a blessing on you and your endeavors.
Good Luck and may she love you more than the sand loves the ocean...
~Rachele
Good news is I got a new phone the Blackberry Tour! Totally love it like beyond all types of love!
Bad News... there is a great deal of uncertainty in my world none the less I keep on pushing.
Well since my lil blog break so much has happened. I went from a pretty happy relationship to letting go all together. I mean it hurts to let go but obviously it was the best thing to do since he and I argued like no other over everything. At times I think I am going for the wrong men and giving to much time and energy to things that shouldn't be paid any attention but all in all, I guess it makes you stronger.
The most painful part of this hiatus was the realization that the one I truly loved and was with lied to me. True enough how we broke up was wrong, but honestly don't sell dreams when yours have come true. It was foolish of me to not expect him to move on, but at the least be honest about it. I shed tears for an hour about the fact the he threw away the option that there could ever be us again.
There will for the time being be a sense of psycho in my mind about it. No... I will never like her for the fact that she felt the need to speak on things that never pertained to her in a sense, but the blame is not entirely on her. If he were as honest as he claimed to be may all these so called feeling wouldn't exist. At times I wish I could go back to the times when we were happier but that is a pure fantasy. He simply wasn't the one since he could seriously not even let things fall according to plan. Maybe I was wrong for expecting him to what things as bad as I did. At the end of the day love is lost and I will not even be a mere thought in his mind. In true confessions I wonder what does she do for you that I didn't? Do you sit up with her in the middle of the night laughing and talk with here like you did with me? Does she cook for you?
Just looking at pictures of us together makes me feel all types of emotions. The picture of me in the hospital that you took. The tears I cried the night I got the positive pregnancy test that you never knew about cuz I was to scared to tell. The fact that even before the little one could be more that just a small fragment of love we had... It was gone. Yes... Letting go is so hard to do cuz you were me and I was you. I still laugh at the fact we look alike, or the fact that we both had fro's. Yet I still shed tears from the fights and heart felt moments we had... So I end this with a blessing on you and your endeavors.
Good Luck and may she love you more than the sand loves the ocean...
~Rachele
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