He and I

The tears rolling down my face like the cold raindrops outside my window.I've had 2 cigarettes since our convo and we have gotten no where. Its amazing how I was his nowandforever, now I don't even know where we stand. Honestly, I don't know how to love him, but sumwhere inside me I know I do. There is no sun in this life of my as of now. I am learning that in this relationship world there is so much joy, yet so much pain. Just telling him to leave hurts me deeply. But where do you draw the like between you and him? You just want him to feel loved but how can you love him if you are losing love for yourself...

To be continued...